I remember how we used to run and play. I remember you were a grand gentleman, even at such a young age, you knew how to treat a lady. I remember how innocent it was, how "innocent" we mischievously were. I remember being so happy that I had someone like you in my life. I'm glad now, to have that chance again to have you in my life as an adult.

daddy complex??

I really do not understand why it is that older men are attracted to me. honestly, I know they say beauty is in the eye of the beholder and shit but, come on!! Do I give off this vibe that says "I need a daddy"?? Ive got one, tho he may be a bit of a son of a bitch, I got one! I am, nor will i ever be attracted to a man that is over 20 fucking years older than me...come on, my mother grew up with you!! what do i look like even thinking about seeing someone like that. I know there are women that are in to the older man thing...they give great security and money (mostly money, come on ladies lets be honest) I dont get it.

Recently I have been approached by this man Steve. Steve went to my mothers high school and my uncles are his closest friends. I thought he was a cool OLD type MAN. Steve has a daughter around MY AGE. Steve likes to comes over to me and my mothers house and smoke pot with us. On one of these smoking occasions Steve decides he has a confession, this mutherfuckere has a goddamn crush on me?!?!? WHAT THE EVERLOVIN FUUUUCK?!?!
ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS? what do i look like even thinking about that shit? YUCK muther fucker.
So i told my mom, and she pretty much told him that was gross and dont do that shit again!

Uncle Ricky... not my uncle?
sittin with my mon smokin a bowl at my ucles house, coincidental right down the road from my house.
Mom " what do you think of Ricky?"
Me "Huh?? what are you talkin bout?"
Mom "never mind, nothing hahahaha"
Me ?!?!? "what are you talkin about mom?"
Mom " nothing, never mind!"

The smoking continues and my "uncle(?)" comes back outside, he is waaasted, they've been afternoon drinking aswell. Fun family :) I go to KFC for some grub...come back & eat.

"uncle" goes inside again

Me "mom what are you talkin about?"
Mom "Ricky wants to date you"
Me gag "What? Isnt he my uncle?"
Mom "not really, I mean we all grew up together, they were always with Ronnie hanging out and stuff.
Me " isnt he Uncle Bubba's brother, doesn't make him my uncle"
" why me? do I look like I have a daddy complex?" "ew"
Mom "hahahaha, I told him you dont like old men, he says he can take care of you'
-me "I can take care of myself, thats gross"
Mom " i know, he is jus lonely and horny"
Me "gross" (fucking kill me now)

I am content alone. If the only man that wants me is old enough to be my father than i DO NOT want you. I am sick of this. These are not the only occasions I have been approached. This is the first time someone I thought was my family did it. This muthafucking town is gonna give me a complex. I have enough to worry about right now.

fucking disgusting

Dear unknown chick...
I dont even know you. Why are you playing on my phone? I do not want your Man. Maybe once upon a time I could have had that, but lets fastforward to 15 yesrs later. Your with him. I am not a fucking homewrecker. I do not have an intrest in a "ready made family" I dont want kids and I dont want his! You need to get over yourself, and trust that he wants to be with you. Even though your a raging bitch! I dont know why guys choose to be with women that like to pick fights over nothing! You have an amazing guy. You need to treat him as such. Being in a relationship is a partnership, you are equals. If he has the decentcy to watch YOUR kids, then you can show him the same respect and watch his aswell. I dont even know you, but I can already see that your a stingy, selfish, bitch! You need to get a clue before you lose someone great. And if I ever find out that your sending me random messages from his phone again... I will be forced to slap the shit out of you.

my absolute fav-fav

Ive always eaten plain bred, ever since I was little. Ive always been content with with a simple slice of white bread and maybe some grape jelly. now im ny adult years Ive come to enjoy a simple piece of toast and maybe butter.

but my absolute fav-fav is this Pepperidge Farm Cinnamon Swirl bread... holy shit, I would kick a small child for a loaf of this shit. Its the perfect combo of toasty bread and jus a bit if cinnamon sweetness. mmm,mmm good.

if you ever want to know how to get in my pants, you can surely bet on this shit!

i had a dream...holy cow

so since its been hot as 65 hells in this house (old house, no central air) i have decided to only sleep in my undies. so now im comfy as shit...... now off to dream land.

oh my...what are you doing in my dreams man? i havent even met you face to face and im dreaming about you?? WTF? (heat induced crazy dreams)
going forward, the evening was great, we all hung out, old friends and new, smoking our fair share of trees, laughing and hanging a stupendous time. all of a sudden i notice, im not wearing a shirt...im in my dream in what ive fallen asleep in.
lol
like i saidyou were there, and at some point int the night we find ourselves flirting. not because im topless, that isnt even an awkward.
i jus dont get it. i dont even think of you like that...hell i dont even know you!

eh, its out my head now. maybe tonight ill keep my dirty thoughts away from you.

xoxo Kg

Im sick of this not having a job thing. I need to get out this place. Largest unemploynent in the US!! Wtf?? Why did i move here? Why doesnt amnyone in my fucking family know about this? "why havent you found a job" THERE ARENT ANY!! I'm ready to start selling my ass or robbing rich people. Its been 4 months!! Ive gotten my taxes ans spent them already. My poor cat is running outta food, I'm about to lose my mind. Something has got to give.

la ti da. my first blog!